Sunday, July 24, 2011
Monday, July 20, 2009
I am UP!
I am up, this late, this early should I say? There is a major force working against us right now. This last month has brought so many tears, so many rejections, so much heartache, and we have become powerless to defend it. Where have we gone that our families are no longer standing thru the test of time? Where have we gone that our jobs are running us so deep into the ground that we have nothing left to give to our families? Where have we gone that our sense of self is hidden behind weaves, MAC and the latest you-can't afford-fashion? There is something to b said of this time right now, that literally has me waking up at night from cold sweats...visions of nightmares and the terror of what is to come.
My purpose in life is to share my experiences, and the experiences that others have shared with me, so that I may be ablessing in your life. We have to get this thing right, cuz the wrong thing is so hard. It is painful, and we shold not have to endure this way; because truth be told, we are the ones responsible for it. LETS CLEAN IT UP!! Today, not tomorrow!!
My purpose in life is to share my experiences, and the experiences that others have shared with me, so that I may be ablessing in your life. We have to get this thing right, cuz the wrong thing is so hard. It is painful, and we shold not have to endure this way; because truth be told, we are the ones responsible for it. LETS CLEAN IT UP!! Today, not tomorrow!!
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Á Snipet from Martin Luther King
Tomorrow maybe to late, don't let anyone make u think, that God chose america as his divine messianic force to be to be a sort of police of the whole world. God has a way of standing before the nations w judgement and it seems...u are too arragant, sometimes it means being frustrated when u tell the truth and take a stand, losing a job, means being abused and scorned, having 8 yr old child...asking y do u go to jail so much...being a follower of jesus, is taking up the cross....that e must bear, bear it for truth, justic..and peace...let us go out with that determination....do not lose faith.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
GOOD MUSIC!!! (originally posted April 25th, 2006)
U know sometimes great music is tight!!I'm uploading alot of my CD's on my mac, and then playing oldies I had stashed away. I went thru Rahsaan Patterson's first CD, and many people don't remember who he is, but he wrote alot of hits in the past, like Brandy's first album and then RayJ's first album, the green one. Then I bounced back to Stevie Wonder. If u really know me, U know I have a stevie wonder song I can pull out for everything that's going on in life. Today's theme would be As If You Read My Mind from Hotter Than July. As If You Read My Mind
Close your eyes til the morning
Close your eyes til the early dew
Get inside what you've been missing
Are the very first words that I heard coming from you
Take a chance on the secret
That you hide for beneath your dreams
Use your wildest imagination
You just tell me what it is and I will make it be
As if you read my mind
As if you touched my soul
As if you knew exactly where I wanted to go
Let's get high on the happy
With a toast to you and me
Love is here just for the giving
And between us we've got all the love we'll ever need
As if you read my mind
As if you touched my soul
As if you knew exactly where I wanted to go
Then I brought it back to that transition between elementary and middle school with Tony! Toni! Tone! Lovin You....um, it's about the music people, all about the music!!
Close your eyes til the morning
Close your eyes til the early dew
Get inside what you've been missing
Are the very first words that I heard coming from you
Take a chance on the secret
That you hide for beneath your dreams
Use your wildest imagination
You just tell me what it is and I will make it be
As if you read my mind
As if you touched my soul
As if you knew exactly where I wanted to go
Let's get high on the happy
With a toast to you and me
Love is here just for the giving
And between us we've got all the love we'll ever need
As if you read my mind
As if you touched my soul
As if you knew exactly where I wanted to go
Then I brought it back to that transition between elementary and middle school with Tony! Toni! Tone! Lovin You....um, it's about the music people, all about the music!!
I am a Work In Progress (Originally posted May 31, 2006)
They say victory is won with blood, sweat and tears.
Well I cried and almost died.
And I'm still here.
In battle we come out with a few bruises.
Perhaps even a lost limb or two.
Well I fought and continued to trust,
And God sees me thru.
Wearing emotions just beneath the surface
I bleed raw.
It's just an old wound,
Not a new scar
I can still claim victory,
While I'm holding broken me
Although in small pieces, my smile covers so u don't see
I can still claim Victory is on my side,
I was struggling in pain awake late one night,
No one but God around to witness this sight.
To try to deliver a being without life.
between the two of us, we created three,
somehow thru it all it still remains just me
And I still claim victory.
I can still claim victory
Well I cried and almost died.
And I'm still here.
In battle we come out with a few bruises.
Perhaps even a lost limb or two.
Well I fought and continued to trust,
And God sees me thru.
Wearing emotions just beneath the surface
I bleed raw.
It's just an old wound,
Not a new scar
I can still claim victory,
While I'm holding broken me
Although in small pieces, my smile covers so u don't see
I can still claim Victory is on my side,
I was struggling in pain awake late one night,
No one but God around to witness this sight.
To try to deliver a being without life.
between the two of us, we created three,
somehow thru it all it still remains just me
And I still claim victory.
I can still claim victory
The Reason I Stopped (originally posted June 19, 2006)
You see too much of me.
I'm not ready to give that much to you.
Already given the best part of me.
But you're not convinced how much I loved you.
Unsure of what I think u need to see,
I withdraw from u completely.
Maybe someone else can understand.
Took some time to get thru to me
but I ran, so startying over is a must
Not the same as we used to be
I believe we lost the innocence of trust
I tell myself I can't get too deep,
Need to keep a way out
Remember what happened the last time
Incase this turns to something horrible
I still keep to myself at times
Another heartbreak would be unbearable.
I'm not ready to give that much to you.
Already given the best part of me.
But you're not convinced how much I loved you.
Unsure of what I think u need to see,
I withdraw from u completely.
Maybe someone else can understand.
Took some time to get thru to me
but I ran, so startying over is a must
Not the same as we used to be
I believe we lost the innocence of trust
I tell myself I can't get too deep,
Need to keep a way out
Remember what happened the last time
Incase this turns to something horrible
I still keep to myself at times
Another heartbreak would be unbearable.
In a Perfect World Things Are Spoken (Originally September 1, 2007)
She lays her head on his chest
inhales a deep breath,
knowing that this will be hard.
He senses she's under some stress
and tries his best
to relax her mind and her heart.
She opens her mouth
but the words won't come out
only tears and a silent cry,
He holds her real close
and wishes and hopes
its what she needs to feel alright.
Under her breath she mutters 2 words
Knowing it will crush his world.
She feels his body go cold,
maybe she shouldn't have told
but the look in his eyes says otherwise.
He tells her
I've known for awhile
you were pregnant with my child.
I was unsure of what you wanted to do.
But whatever it is
I got u,
u know I love you
A slight mutter escapes her lips
as he leans over for a kiss
she said
That's not the part
that's got me messed up
but in order to move past
I gotta fess up.
Been seeing a guy
for about a month or two
not sure who the daddy is,
Its either him or you.
I'm praying that my mistake
will be forgiven by God.
And I'll understand if you leave,
cuz I'm making it hard.
You're the man of my dreams
u take good care of me,
but something inside
is holding on to insecurities.
I'm trying to believe
that what we got can work,
but at times I feel
I'll still be hurt.
U don't come home like u used to
and squeeze me tight.
U crawl in the bed
without even a goodnight
By the break of daylight
I awake to cold sheets,
missing the conversations we had
when our eyes would meet.
Now I'm longing for that closeness
we used to share together
and our relationship is headed
for a lot of tough weather.
I apologize for steppin out on you,
its not in my spirit.
I should've left when i had the chance
instead of putting u in it.
Still embracing her in his arms, he stiffens his body to her response.
I understand what I've been putting you through,
I'm sorry, I never meant to hurt you.
But the fact is I've been pulling away.
My father taught me that a man always stays.
Regardless of the fights and stress,
a man doesn't run from his problems....
but then again he doesn't confess.
Baby I feel the distance growing between us,
and now its my turn to clear the air.
I'm a lot of bit responsible for those feelings being there.
Remember when I went to Jersey and let u stay behind?
Well I went with more than inocent intentions in mind.
I went back to my ex, to test the waters
see what I might be missing.
After a few hours of talking,
I stayed the night and we started kissing.
Cuz I knew it was wrong I left,
I couldn't do that to you.
But ever since that day,
I found myself changing my mood.
It had nothing to do with you,
cuz you've been nothing but sweet,
but I need to find resolution in me.
inhales a deep breath,
knowing that this will be hard.
He senses she's under some stress
and tries his best
to relax her mind and her heart.
She opens her mouth
but the words won't come out
only tears and a silent cry,
He holds her real close
and wishes and hopes
its what she needs to feel alright.
Under her breath she mutters 2 words
Knowing it will crush his world.
She feels his body go cold,
maybe she shouldn't have told
but the look in his eyes says otherwise.
He tells her
I've known for awhile
you were pregnant with my child.
I was unsure of what you wanted to do.
But whatever it is
I got u,
u know I love you
A slight mutter escapes her lips
as he leans over for a kiss
she said
That's not the part
that's got me messed up
but in order to move past
I gotta fess up.
Been seeing a guy
for about a month or two
not sure who the daddy is,
Its either him or you.
I'm praying that my mistake
will be forgiven by God.
And I'll understand if you leave,
cuz I'm making it hard.
You're the man of my dreams
u take good care of me,
but something inside
is holding on to insecurities.
I'm trying to believe
that what we got can work,
but at times I feel
I'll still be hurt.
U don't come home like u used to
and squeeze me tight.
U crawl in the bed
without even a goodnight
By the break of daylight
I awake to cold sheets,
missing the conversations we had
when our eyes would meet.
Now I'm longing for that closeness
we used to share together
and our relationship is headed
for a lot of tough weather.
I apologize for steppin out on you,
its not in my spirit.
I should've left when i had the chance
instead of putting u in it.
Still embracing her in his arms, he stiffens his body to her response.
I understand what I've been putting you through,
I'm sorry, I never meant to hurt you.
But the fact is I've been pulling away.
My father taught me that a man always stays.
Regardless of the fights and stress,
a man doesn't run from his problems....
but then again he doesn't confess.
Baby I feel the distance growing between us,
and now its my turn to clear the air.
I'm a lot of bit responsible for those feelings being there.
Remember when I went to Jersey and let u stay behind?
Well I went with more than inocent intentions in mind.
I went back to my ex, to test the waters
see what I might be missing.
After a few hours of talking,
I stayed the night and we started kissing.
Cuz I knew it was wrong I left,
I couldn't do that to you.
But ever since that day,
I found myself changing my mood.
It had nothing to do with you,
cuz you've been nothing but sweet,
but I need to find resolution in me.
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